Has it really been this long?

I'm kinda - no scratch that - I'm pretty bummed that I have not posted anything in such a long time. The past year of being a working mom has had so many amazing adventures that, not only would have made great blog posts, but would have been great to preserve for my little guy to read someday.  As you can imagine, if I have't had time to blog, what do you think the little man's baby book looks like? Yeah, that's right - just a bunch of empty pages.

Creating the blog was a great way to at least have an online depository of stories and milestones. But going back to work and somehow finding that work-life-blog balance has been somewhat of a challenge. And I know there are TONS of great moms out there that somehow pull it off. I need to obtain their secret sauce and poor it all over my Cheerios in the morning.

Well, with that said, the little man turned 3 last week! 3 - I can't even believe it has been 3 years and at the same time it feels like its been forever.  3 is an interesting time because now he definitely has his opinions and proclaimed to me that he would like a Spiderman birthday party. Which sounded like a great bunch of fun to me. Who doesn't like a great superhero birthday? And so close to Halloween meant that I would get at least two uses out of the costume investment.

This year, just like last year (even though I always say I'm not going to do such a big party again) we had about 30 kiddos running around our Marvel City, complete with Spiderman bounce house.

I did not bake the cake - or even the cupcakes this year. I had the awesome people at Great Dane Bakery  hook me up with a fantastic Spiderman themed cake. Which I awe a big thank you to Tiny Oranges for posting on her Facebook page and helping me find a great bakery!

Anyway - enough of the rambling - you would think I hadn't posted in months - here are some pictures from the party:

I left the milk on top of the fridge...again.

So, it’s been about 2 months since I have turned in my SAHM badge and returned to the corporate world. …it feels like it’s been a year.


The return has been a huge adjustment for the whole family. Trying to find time for everything that needs to get done during the week, or even the day is a challenge. I’m thinking about outsourcing the feeding of the dog.

I’ve been leaving the milk on top of the refrigerator. A lot. I don’t know why. When I need to reach the item behind it, for some reason I think it’s faster to put it on top of the refrigerator instead of taking the extra second to pivot to the counter.

Maybe it’s just that my “mommy brain” can only handle so much input. That one’s a mystery. But pretty funny to hear the hubs tell me that I left the milk on top of the fridge again. Which only means I now have to carve out the time to go get more. Great. Another thing to do.

It does become a bit overwhelming at times. Good thing I have that little stock pile of “mommies little helper” in the cabinet. Not to mention the hit our wine stock has taken.

But going back to work while the kiddo is going through the “twos” may be the crux of the struggle for adjustment. Which makes me think that I definitely made the right decision.

Even though its soo tough to let go of the little man every morning while he cries “No mommy, no” almost every day when I take him to school, it just might be better to get him into the routine now, than to wait any longer.

I say this only because I see that little personality bubbling to the surface. Or I should say, attitude. He unquestionably knows what he does and does not want to do. He has become so independent. He wants to dress himself which means it doesn't really matter that the red Lighting McQueen socks match his yellow shirt or not. That’s what he wants to wear. He wants to cook his own food. He wants to put his seatbelt on himself in the carseat.

I think he thinks he can rent his own apartment right now.

If only we could get that “potty” thing down.

At least now, in the “twos” I am hoping there is still time to mold this little person and get him used to being at school and interacting with others before he gets completely set in his ways.

I have to say I am struggling with the fact that I may be missing out on some key events in his life. I missed his first Christmas program at his school because I couldn’t get off work in time. Yeah, I know there will be other Christmas programs, but this was the FIRST Christmas program. And there will be other things I will miss that I have to come to grips with.

And therein lays the balance thing.

So as I struggle on with my new role, I keep it in the back of my mind that this is good for everyone. Financially, socially and mentally.



More to come.

Handing in my SAHM badge

My "Stay-at-Home Mom" status has been officially revoked as I just completed the first cycle in the new role of "Working Mom".  I have to tell you. If I thought it was hard finding time to do things before without a massive degree in intense scheduling, this requires a Ph.D.

Every minute of my day is now scheduled down to the minute. And everyday is like groundhog day.

I'm still not 100% sure about this new adventure I have taken on. But,  it's only been a week. So I'll give it some more time. The working part is easy. Leaving the kiddo all day, every day and trying not think about the little things that I might be missing out on is the hard part. I mean, I just talked to him the other day on the phone as the hubs and him waited for me to make it home through the long line of brake lights on the freeway, and he seemed so grown up! He was actually telling me what he wanted for dinner that night. Macaroni & cheese. I felt like I had missed 2 years, and it had only been two days.

I know its good for him to gain the experience he is getting from school and all the other kiddos (along with all the illness and bad habits) but it's really hard not to miss him all day and feel like I've abandoned him.

Let's see how this week goes.