My "Stay-at-Home Mom" status has been officially revoked as I just completed the first cycle in the new role of "Working Mom". I have to tell you. If I thought it was hard finding time to do things before without a massive degree in intense scheduling, this requires a Ph.D.
Every minute of my day is now scheduled down to the minute. And everyday is like groundhog day.
I'm still not 100% sure about this new adventure I have taken on. But, it's only been a week. So I'll give it some more time. The working part is easy. Leaving the kiddo all day, every day and trying not think about the little things that I might be missing out on is the hard part. I mean, I just talked to him the other day on the phone as the hubs and him waited for me to make it home through the long line of brake lights on the freeway, and he seemed so grown up! He was actually telling me what he wanted for dinner that night. Macaroni & cheese. I felt like I had missed 2 years, and it had only been two days.
I know its good for him to gain the experience he is getting from school and all the other kiddos (along with all the illness and bad habits) but it's really hard not to miss him all day and feel like I've abandoned him.
Let's see how this week goes.
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Good luck, mama!
ReplyDeleteIt's always hard to go back to work. I really enjoyed the experience but felt like i needed to grow five more arms to keep up with the stuff at home and at work and to give my kiddo some extra hugs because I occasionally felt so guilty for being out of the house.
keep us updated.=)
Good luck!! I was wondering why things have been so quiet over here... :)
ReplyDeleteCONGRATS ON THE NEW GIG!
ReplyDeleteI know it has its up & downs.. but once you get your routine down- you will love it and the guilt of not always being with the kiddo will be less.
xx
Hi ... haven't been around in quite a long while myself ... I get where you're at- finding order- some form of it at least- is hard ... but have faith- you'll get there! Hope you can stop by my place again sometime too ;-)
ReplyDeleteI hope you stop feeling so guilty. But it comes and goes.
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